A hard post to write

I haven't written a proper post for a week or so.

My emotions are on a roller coaster ride at the moment.

My dear Mum is on life support in ICU at our local hospital after suffering a heart attack last Wednesday.

I love my Mum dearly and it has been so hard to watch her health deteriorate over the last couple of years.

She is 74 years of age and can be stubborn to say the least.

Mum and I when I was 5 years old and flowergirl at my Aunt's wedding.

She is lucid and aware of what is going on around her although she says she can't see.

Tomorrow I hope to find out from the doctors more of what to expect over the next few days.  They say the next option is palliative care but she can't leave the hospital while on a ventilator.  I don't know what to expect.

My brother and my son went to visit her tonight and they told her they would see her again at the weekend.

Mum told them she would be "Upstairs" I am crying while typing this.  It is just so hard on my stepdad, my children and my brother.

My daughter is expecting her first baby early in July.  She is very close to her Nanna and she is going to call her bub Mia Amelia if it is a little girl.

Mum's first name is Amelia although she has never liked it and is known as "Joan" which is her middle name.

Please say a prayer for my Mum.

Thank you.